Yo-Yo Girl

Relationships...
I know there is no how to manual for many things in life but last year in desperation, I searched the net to seek out some advice for a situation I was going through with a male because I was just tired of talking to people about it. I came across the blog Baggage Reclaim, and I swear this woman is an expert. Like there where so many articles that were dead on, I couldn't believe it!

Today is no exception and this one REALLY hits home for one of my situations...

Yo-Yo girl:

The Yo-Yo Girl, that woman that keeps returning to the scene of the crime and seems to have a trail of unfinished business in her life, or ‘boomerang relationships’. You’ll know you’re her if:
• Either of the scenario’s above seem familiar.

• You claim you’ve ended it with various partners, but you have hook-ups and there have been several attempts at rekindling things, that clearly aren’t working out.

• There seems to be no end to your relationships – they end ambiguously and when he returns, whilst you may have high hopes, he continues to be ambiguous.

• You’ve often gone from being in a relationship with a guy, to being broken up, to being his booty call…even if you rationalise it as something better…

• You claim to be over your ex’s but secretly hold out hope that at least one of them will come blazing back in on his white horse and declare his undying love and realise how wonderful you are. (cough, cough!)

• Despite finding yourself in these scenario’s, you fear confronting him and asking for clarification and instead rely on your imagination…

Today's post: Why You'll Always Be A Yo-Yo Girl If You Don't Maintain The No Contact Rule

http://www.baggagereclaim.co.uk/why-youll-always-be-a-yo-yo-girl-if-you-dont-maintain-the-no-contact-rule/#more-1150

Could not come at a better time. I'm at a crossroads...You want something so bad so you stay even when it sometimes makes me feel like shit! You want more for yourself, and I truly believe that I deserve more, I deserve the best, but I can't find the strength to walk away from something that has been so familiar for 4 years. I find myself doubting the abilities of other males who try to grow close cuz I'm stuck on everyone having ulterior motives AND some do... but not everyone. I don't know, I'm depressed now thinking about it.

Sometimes I wish someone would grab me and shake me out of it!

Teedra is Back!

OMG... I should really start that music blog, but anywho.
TEEDRA MOSES has a new track floating on the net.
I heard it a couple of days ago.
It's called "So Cool".
I love Teedra so, I don't care what it sounds like
But it's growing on me, its a different sound but not in a bad way it has like an 80s Prince vibe going on.
I'm just so EXCITED that she is back.

CNN Presents: Black In America

I've been waiting since I found out in January for this series to air. I think that it is something that the world should tune into. I wish that this would make a major impact on our society, but I know that is not realistic. I have always wondered why a dark skin color would make a world of a difference in how you were treated and what opportunities could be given in life. This series will cover both sides black women and men. And also touching on issues of prison, education, wealth, family, marriage and various others.

It comes on tonite at 9pm and resumes tomorrow at the same time on CNN.

TMI Tuesday: Fart Edition LOL!

1. Are your farts;
a. Silent but deadly
b. All sound, no fury
c. Loud and stinky
2. Have you ever farted in front of a lover? Who was the 1st one to do it? How did they or you handle it.
Hell naw! I've never let it slip in front of a male partner yet... I would be disgusted with myself.
3. Have you ever farted and tried to blame someone else? Who and did you get away with it?
All the time. I tend to act like I don't even smell anything. LOL.
4. What food triggers you?
Diary products are a killer.
5. Varts (Vaginal Farts) Scary, or an indication of a good time being had by all?
It happened once, and needless to say I could have died! It was embarrassing, but hey I was definitely having a good time!

Addicted: True Hook Up Confessions

I'm so addicted to True Hook Up Confessions!

It is basically a site where you can say the things you were afraid to say to someone or just random, crazy thoughts you may have.
I have spent hours on there just reading and agreeing with others.
The whole thing is anonymous.
I've only made 1 post.
You will never believe how many people share your same thoughts. AMAZING!

Go visit:
http://www.truehookupconfessions.com/

R.I.P. K-Swift aka Baltimore Club Queen

Anyone from Baltimore and surrounding areas who pick up 92 Q as a radio station or who come to the clubs in Baltimore, are familiar with the Dj-ing of Baltimore's Club Queen K-Swift. She passed suddenly last night in what is being unofficially reported as an accidental drowning where she may have hit her head in a pool. There has been no official reports that I have seen yet. This is absolutely shocking news to me and to Baltimore as a city. K-Swift was the number one DJ in every ones book. I just seen her on Saturday at the cultural festival here in Baltimore Artscape and she was on stage DJing while everyone was parting to their favorite club songs. I'm not so much a club fan now, but back in the day when I was hitting it heavy I always wanted to go where K-Swift was because I knew the music would be jumping. The Paradox was the spot! Even that awful club Choices when she was there. K-Swift did both of my proms in high school....aww the memories of the music. She will truly be missed and club music will never be the same without her. R.I.P. ans condolences to her family. Truly one of B-More's finest!

My favs!:

Random Thoughts Through Song

Death Cab for Cutie - I Will Possess Your Heart

How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me

It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read - just yet

You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me

And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

There are days when outside your window,

I see my reflection as I slowly pass

And I long for this mirrored perspective,

when we'll be lovers, lovers at last

You reject my advances and desperate pleas

I won't let you, let me down so easily, so easily

TMI Tuesday - School Days Edition

1. What were you known as in HS (Jock, Princess, Geek)

Hmm... people could have thought many things about me in high school. I never seen myself in one of those stereotypical labels. I was cool with everyone from any clique. Some would say I was a goody two shoes, smart girl in class, quiet, mean girl, crazy. I was in my own category!

2. What were you really?

I was out of control, sike naw I was all about my work but I still liked to have fun.

3. If you could go back and tell your 16 year old self one thing, what would it be?

I am 22 and I can't really remember too much about 6 years ago SAD...Hmm let me think. At 16 I got out of a crazy relationship, I got my first cell phone and I started going to the club, granted it was a 21 and under joint, and I experimented with drinking simple as Bailey's Irish cream and Smirnoff Ice. The one thing I would tell myself is to take it easy and enjoy young life, I think as a teen you want to be grown up so fast and when it happens, you will be longing for the good ole days.

4. If you could erase one moment from your school days what would it be?

I have no regrets or did anything too foolishly to want to get rid of a moment in time.

5. Who did you not date (or more) that you wish you did?

Aahh there were definitely some people who could get it LOL. Freshman year was the best there were soo many fine upperclassmen that I lusted for but as far as others... Lets just say I got more than enough people after high school was over.

Bonus (as in optional): If you went to prom, describe your outfit.

We had two proms.

Junior Prom: I wore a simple lavender dress that was tight fitting that was cut on and angle at the bottom and the straps criss-crossed in the back. I got it made and now when I look at those pictures I hate it. My make up was on point though.

Senior Prom: I wore a peach colored dress that was made like the one Charlize Theron wore to the 2000 Oscars.

TMI Tuesday - Deadly Sins Edition

1. LUST: Besides your current Significant Other who do you lust for or have you lusted for?

I don't have a significant other, so I can lust over the many gorgeous men in the world.

2. GLUTTONY: What food brings out your inner glutton?

Sweets. Any kind. I truly believe that I have a sweet tooth cuz I can eat anything sweet at anytime and never get tired of it. But I love cakes.

3. GREED: What are you greedy for?

Money. I want to be rich dammit! Currently: Food. That's why my stomach looks gross.

Love. I want to give and be loved.

4. SLOTH: What is your plan for an ideal day of sloth?

Pure nothingness of laying in my bed all day stuffing my face.

5. WRATH: Describe a time that you let out a can of whoop ass on someone.

I haven't fought in forever. There have been so many times I wanted to smack someone...I cuss people out... you know I'm crazy!

6. ENVY: Who or what do you envy? Why?

I guess its natural to envy someone who is in the position that you want to be, but I'm not about hating on people. I spend that energy bettering my own situation.

7. PRIDE: Have you ever had to swallow your pride? What are you proud of?

I'm mad that I'm still in college and that I won't be out until December 2009 and I will have to walk across the stage with 2010 but I am proud that no matter what I have not given up the fight.

What do I do?

I've been away for about a week or two now...
I'm not sure what to do with my blog...
I don't really get any readers so...

I don't know.
Then I thought of starting another blog based on music but I'm not sure of the time devotion I could make to it.

So what do I do?